by 55funsurf » Mon Nov 04, 2013 3:00 am
I live in Australia and my life has involved being in the surf in one way or another since early childhood memory. I am now 55, and weigh in at 69 kg, So I am lightweight....
From teenage years I had an innate fear of catching waves at Fairy Bower in Sydney. I would head out under encouragement from the so called mates....but rarely caught waves there...
I became one of the crowd that just hung out on the shoulder and it use to frustrate the hell out of me but fear always got the better of me....
In my late thirties and after a 7 year self inflicted dry spell with no surf, I started to get into it again.
But with a new approach as a clean and sober person and an overwhelming desire to get better and challenge my fears of bigger waves...
I trained hard on dry land, surfed regularly, bought new boards and started seeking advice from better surfers and people who I respected.......Yep, I asked dumb questions to start with but eventually got the right information......I gained the knowledge of where I needed to take off at Bower, a better understanding of the wave form and some tips about paddling in,,, I then went out there in every condition and for the sole purpose of preparing for a 'big day'....
A big day at Bower for me is when a whole heap pf people are perched on the cliff hooting everytime the sets start appearing, and the crew is many in the water, but most out there not doing anything...
So the day finally came....
Years of fear inside me as I paddled out, the long way, stick the rocks, I am paddling...Its good exercise and I need to warm up....
Picked up a small break on race course on the way out, dont know how that happened with the crowd that was there but I thought grab it and it was the perfect primer with a good little wall and a bit of oomph,
Back to the paddling, my trusty BM 7'8 and my helmut...Yep my mates have knocked the good old helmut, but I wont be without it...extra comfort and feels great to surf in...especially in a crowd and on rocks...
headed right over onto the inside and just kept it up until I was the person on the most inside point and everyone was then outside of me...that on its own was an achievement because I had learned that I had to be on the inide, second or third was not an option.....so I worked hard on the tactics to get the position.....Some people dont like the competition,,,too bad...
All the hootin starts up on the cliff, the line up starts paddling, and its my wave....kaboom....completely blew the first take off and took the drop,,,smash....
Stick that....I paddled like buggery and got back in the line up,,,,and worked it back to the inisde.....
I had learned my lessons but made one mistake....the first wave closed on the section and I needed to be selective and pay more attention to the wave shape and face before I comit....
Next set.....all go....8-10 foot easy...and surge rock poking its head up somewhere down the line.......
So I figured, the line up can have the first two waves as I am going for the third cos it looks really big and its very likely going to wrap....., I was on the inside and this was a situation that if I blew it, I would probably not get another wave for the day.....
My heart was pounding, and I turned my board, chin on the deck, like I had been trained.... and paddled like hell....
This was my big wave, the biggest wave of my life.....and as far as I was concerned I hadnt just spent the last 12 months training and busting my guts out to lose this moment,,,,
Got the perfect take off and all I can say is for anyone who knows big clean bower, its just an amazing wave as it literally builds and wraps around to race course....
I am not a big wave rider by any means and this little story is not to brag that I am, but that session saw me with 3 more big waves all the way and then I was out....
i can still recall the straight line speed, my sense of self assurance in trim and the turns and just the shear size of the face as it built from the first turn....
At this stage of my life, now 55, I am content with small fun waves but having said that I will have a go if its bigger but for me I need to be fit for it....
I need to be fit for it because if I am not fit its an injsutice to myself and for every other surfer out in the water who is also making the commitment.....
So the message from this little story is for some of us it takes a heap of effort to challenge fear let alone overcome it.......but for me I learned in later life that my fear was underpinned by one fundamental thing that was missing....
I was missing an important piece of information that the safest and best place to actually take off was in fact the most inside point....
That the mind can delude some of us to seek safety on the shoulder is a self deception....
Once I started to better understand that, my approach changed because I had something to work for....For me that something was, I am going to be on the most inside position and to justify that, I made certain like hell that I was in good shape to manage that responsibility.....
... that is an attitude I still take into the water today, whether its one foot or bigger,,,
and sometimes for me it means that its better to sit on the beach and watch rather than be another person in a heavy wave situation just for the sake of being there.....
It follows then that if I am on the beach as a spectator, and I then decide I am going to be out there one day in the big stuff, then I need to prepare myself so when I get out there I am actually going to take off and be capable to get into it....If I am not prepared to put the prep in, then I shouldnt go out.....
Rossa