I had moved to Hawaii (The Big Island) about 4 years ago from New York, and recently I've been going to a school that offers surfing classes as an elective. We go down to the beach twice a week during school for about an hour and a half.
I really love being given the opportunity to learn how to surf

But...
Being able to surf, even on the weekends are limited. The beach is no way within walking distance from my house, and my parents are usually too busy to take me. And from what I've seen during surf class, it seems to me that there are a lot of people on the island that are professional surfers. (Two people in my surfing class got to compete in professional surfing competitions against adults). It just feels awkward with people staring me down while I try and get the hang of it. I haven't been able to stand up yet. I sort of did once but I stood up the wrong way and flew back into the water as soon as I did

Anyways...
The beaches on the side of the island where I live are a bit dangerous. There's one beach that's always crowded with people that doesn't give me good practice and people are shouting at one another to "GET OUT OF THE WAY!"
The beach that I go to for surfing class is a bit dangerous. Many kids, (Including me..) have gotten hurt at the beach. The last month of school one of the surfing kid's father died surfing at the beach. I actually got hit with a fellow students hardboard on my head. It didn't really hurt, but I was in a daze and decided to come back in early, and as soon as I got back on land I had passed out. I really want to learn how to surf but sometimes these things are a little discouraging. I know I shouldn't be feeling this way but...

Do you have any suggestions?