justloafing wrote: [
I don't know thaya!!! Sounds like you left your heart Hawaii.
I think you need to get your thoughts in order and very seriously think about going back. I am like Otter, older and wiser. I have no clue on what your goals are in life but I do know one thing.
When I was 24 I left Wilmington, NC. I had lived here for 6 years and absolutely loved it. I went to pursue other goals. I knew the moment I was driving out of town what a mistake I had made. It took 2 years to get back and those were 2 of the most wasted years of my life. Don't get me wrong you need to have a plan IMO but a plan that lets you enjoy instead of gets you all wrapped up in what the world thinks is so important. It was not worth it to me those two years and I regret the decision to this day but at least I know where I call home now and also like Otter I try to live the most relaxed life that I can. I hope all of your soul searching leads you to a very happy life. DO WHAT YOU WANT!!!!!!!!!
Well, I guess something I realised was that I don't have a home, so it's not like I've got anywhere to leave and regret!!! I haven't had a "home" since I was a kid and I've been moving around the UK constantly since then. I have no "base" over here, hardly any family/relatives and my closest friends are spread all over the country... so leaving wouldn't be a big issue. I'm sick of society expecting you to follow a certain path. I don't want a 9-5 job (or in my case an 11 hour 7-6 day with evenings and weekends on top full of marking, lesson planning, reports, coursework etc

) Maybe one day I will go back to it, but right now it feels wrong and I'm not enjoying things.
I've kinda already been offered a great cash-in-hand job to get me by over there for the time being if I do go straight back, but I want to work here to save up as much as poss over the next few months really, as a back up plan!
I met someone who gave me the confidence and motivation to change things instead of feeling trapped and unhappy and I just feel like I've reached a turning point.
I'm gonna see how things go till Xmas so that I'm sure I'm doing the right thing.
thanks x