BaNZ wrote: Needless to say it's very hard to catch the wave as it's too big and I usually sit at the shoulder because I don't want to sit at the peak and wipeout and potentially injury a shortboarder.
Bear in mind that I just do a crappy turtle roll. So I usually check if someone is behind me, if no one is there. I just dive under without the board and pray the leash will stay intact.
I know I should be taking the red arrow direction, but it is risky as I don't trust myself not to run surfers over.
Question: Am I using the wrong size board?
Answer: It doesn't matter what the board you choose as the board is not holding you back, YOU are.
Look at these statements, "I hope I don't LOSE" versus "I want to WIN". Technically they mean the same thing, but there's different in their approach. You are playing to not lose. You are hoping to win by the other team not scoring. You're playing only defense, where is your offensive game ?
When are you going to take control of the situation ? All I hear is "I don't want to get in others way" "I don't want to run someone over" "I just try to avoid this". Sure we don't want to be a danger and be overconfident. Not speeding thru an intersection and cutting between cars on the highway. But in your case, you mindset is more like I'll just creep into the intersection slowly and hope others will go around me. That's just an accident waiting to happen.
When are you going to be in control of your vehicle ? All I read is "I am trying to not fall off" "I'm just trying to stay on as long as possible" " the board gets ripped out of my hands". Would you ride in a car when the driver admits "I'm just trying not to crash" ?
When are you going to get the confidence to surf in crowds and in bigger waves ? Answer: When you learn how to SURF. Not just RIDE the wave, but actually surf and maneuver on the wave. Being able to stop and kickout on a dime ( to avoid others). Being able to surf equally as will frontside and backside ( just in case someone drops in, you can go the other way ).
Build up your technique, build up your paddling power, learn how to turtle roll, Learn how to kick out, learn the ocean and understanding of the wave. Do Not try to fix the arrow.
Question: Am I using the wrong size board?
Answer: A good surfer can surf ANY board. ( and the opposite is true for a surfer who is NOT in control of the board or himself )