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oldmansurfer wrote:Here is a bit about his family https://heavy.com/news/2019/05/sunny-garcia-family/?fbclid=IwAR1S7ufwJlVK1X_YBTxjo1kr7p_cgBuobgdiaKQ9A_n6Rv-ZynFqxERleoc
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by kookRachelle » Thu Sep 19, 2019 10:20 pm
oldmansurfer wrote:I wasn't ever formally diagnosed with depression but I had problems as a teenager. I came very close to committing suicide once as a young adult. I was going to paddle out on my surfboard to where it was very deep and dive down till I ran out of air. I had just broken up with my girlfriend. She broke up with me because I had a cast on my right forearm and hand due to a boxers break. She took this time to break up with me because it affected my sexual performance and that was the entire basis of our relationship. I was so addicted to her it was really traumatic even though I knew this was going to happen. I had always had a low self esteem and was just starting to feel like I was worthwhile so it was easy for me to go back to thinking I was worthless. I paddled out at my usual spot and there was no one out there and no waves. Just as I got to the usual place that the waves broke a small set came in. They were really small waves but perfectly shaped so I thought well maybe I'll just catch a wave before I off myself so I turned around and caught a wave. I thought well that was alright maybe just one more. Next thing you know I am surfing and having a good time. I realized that I didn't need to kill myself right at that moment but if it became unbearable that was always waiting for me. So I went in and dried off my cast and tried to figure out a away to make a waterproof cover for it. I guess you could say surfing saved my life. It probably wouldn't have been an issue if I didn't have my hand in a cast. I found myself able to endure much suffering because I knew that it would probably end at some point and if not then death was waiting for me to ease my pain. I still keep that in mind these days like death is my pal waiting to meet me again some day one last time. Some day I will die but not anytime soon
by tomthetreeman » Sun Sep 22, 2019 9:58 am
oldmansurfer wrote:I wasn't ever formally diagnosed with depression but I had problems as a teenager. I came very close to committing suicide once as a young adult. I was going to paddle out on my surfboard to where it was very deep and dive down till I ran out of air. I had just broken up with my girlfriend. She broke up with me because I had a cast on my right forearm and hand due to a boxers break. She took this time to break up with me because it affected my sexual performance and that was the entire basis of our relationship. I was so addicted to her it was really traumatic even though I knew this was going to happen. I had always had a low self esteem and was just starting to feel like I was worthwhile so it was easy for me to go back to thinking I was worthless. I paddled out at my usual spot and there was no one out there and no waves. Just as I got to the usual place that the waves broke a small set came in. They were really small waves but perfectly shaped so I thought well maybe I'll just catch a wave before I off myself so I turned around and caught a wave. I thought well that was alright maybe just one more. Next thing you know I am surfing and having a good time. I realized that I didn't need to kill myself right at that moment but if it became unbearable that was always waiting for me. So I went in and dried off my cast and tried to figure out a away to make a waterproof cover for it. I guess you could say surfing saved my life. It probably wouldn't have been an issue if I didn't have my hand in a cast. I found myself able to endure much suffering because I knew that it would probably end at some point and if not then death was waiting for me to ease my pain. I still keep that in mind these days like death is my pal waiting to meet me again some day one last time. Some day I will die but not anytime soon
by tomthetreeman » Sun Sep 22, 2019 10:11 am
kookRachelle wrote:Man, depression is the worst. A close friend of mine lost his son to suicide three years ago. My own mother attempted suicide twice when I was very young.
I also suffer from mental health issues, but meds and therapy have helped me tremendously and I've never gotten to the point of considering suicide. Regardless, I've made the conscious decision not to have kids because my depression gets so bad at times, it physically hurts and is so exhausting, I can't even leave my home for days. I can't imagine having a kid to run after during these times and wouldn't want to risk passing it down to a loved one.
I am a cyclist and ride for my friend's charity ride in memory of his son up in New Paltz, NY every year in June - The Ride for Mental Health. They're doing a great job in squashing the stigma little by little... mental health issues need to be normalized to the point where it's considered the same as diabetes or high blood pressure, no shame.
by billie_morini » Mon Sep 23, 2019 6:34 am
oldmansurfer wrote:I wasn't ever formally diagnosed with depression but I had problems as a teenager. I came very close to committing suicide once as a young adult. I was going to paddle out on my surfboard to where it was very deep and dive down till I ran out of air. I had just broken up with my girlfriend. She broke up with me because I had a cast on my right forearm and hand due to a boxers break. She took this time to break up with me because it affected my sexual performance and that was the entire basis of our relationship. I was so addicted to her it was really traumatic even though I knew this was going to happen. I had always had a low self esteem and was just starting to feel like I was worthwhile so it was easy for me to go back to thinking I was worthless. I paddled out at my usual spot and there was no one out there and no waves. Just as I got to the usual place that the waves broke a small set came in. They were really small waves but perfectly shaped so I thought well maybe I'll just catch a wave before I off myself so I turned around and caught a wave. I thought well that was alright maybe just one more. Next thing you know I am surfing and having a good time. I realized that I didn't need to kill myself right at that moment but if it became unbearable that was always waiting for me. So I went in and dried off my cast and tried to figure out a away to make a waterproof cover for it. I guess you could say surfing saved my life. It probably wouldn't have been an issue if I didn't have my hand in a cast. I found myself able to endure much suffering because I knew that it would probably end at some point and if not then death was waiting for me to ease my pain. I still keep that in mind these days like death is my pal waiting to meet me again some day one last time. Some day I will die but not anytime soon
by oldmansurfer » Mon Sep 23, 2019 10:09 pm
by NicM » Sat Oct 12, 2019 3:45 am
oldmansurfer wrote:I have had so many close calls nearly died instances in my life. The concept of dying was something I dealt with at a very young age. I always knew it might happen but it never did. Still one of these days it will happen. It's a fact of life. From the moment you are born there is only one thing that is certain and that is you will die at some point. Why live your whole life in fear of that moment? I mean you don't need to shorten your life but live without fearing the end. It's going to come whatever you do so you should live your life appropriately so you won't regret it when it's your time.
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