Positioning in crowded lineup

Where to sit? Always a question.
I've got a board which is impossible to duck dive properly over shoulder-height waves so I tend to sit very far as I don't like to get washed and loose my position. To get priority I have to sit very deep as well, sometimes too deep so more experienced guys burn me but at least karma is on my side
However, I think that I don't get the wave count I want and can see all groms are ripping close to the shore catching small waves and having fun. Yes, usually I'm on bombs, but they tend to break faster and look more scary plus all Pros and heavy locals want them too and they ignore less experienced people like me even if I'm deeper.
But if I try to sit closer to the shore to catch something smaller I tend to get cleared and then pushed from my position and get into other people's way. I don't like angry people. Especially from North Narrabeen. Anyway, the obvious reason is to buy a smaller board which is easy to duck dive but I guess I'm not ready to drop my wave count as smaller board will cut my chance to get a wave for sure.
What should I do?
I've got a board which is impossible to duck dive properly over shoulder-height waves so I tend to sit very far as I don't like to get washed and loose my position. To get priority I have to sit very deep as well, sometimes too deep so more experienced guys burn me but at least karma is on my side

However, I think that I don't get the wave count I want and can see all groms are ripping close to the shore catching small waves and having fun. Yes, usually I'm on bombs, but they tend to break faster and look more scary plus all Pros and heavy locals want them too and they ignore less experienced people like me even if I'm deeper.
But if I try to sit closer to the shore to catch something smaller I tend to get cleared and then pushed from my position and get into other people's way. I don't like angry people. Especially from North Narrabeen. Anyway, the obvious reason is to buy a smaller board which is easy to duck dive but I guess I'm not ready to drop my wave count as smaller board will cut my chance to get a wave for sure.
What should I do?