a big drop in front of me before standing

hi,
I'm surfing for a few moths already, i usually surf alone(i mean there are other surfers in the lineup but not a friend whom i can get advice from) and i am already able to catch waves and corners but still have some fears and a lot of things which I'm not sure whether I'm doing right or wrong.
the waves height are 2-5 ft.
one of the things happens to me a lot is when a set comes and i want to catch a big wave i start paddling and then when i'm on the wave i see a steep drop in front of me (not just a gentell one) and it feels like maybe im too slow or something.
usually when i look at other surfers beside me i see they are paddling and located on the 2/3 height of the wave while for me it feel like im on the very top of it(it might be it's just my feelings and fears make me think so)
so.. my questions are
what should i see up there ? should it be a gentle slope and i'm doing something wrong ? should it look steep and i need to lean forward and stand anyway ?
should i really be located at the 2/3 height as i see other do ?
thank you very much !
I'm surfing for a few moths already, i usually surf alone(i mean there are other surfers in the lineup but not a friend whom i can get advice from) and i am already able to catch waves and corners but still have some fears and a lot of things which I'm not sure whether I'm doing right or wrong.
the waves height are 2-5 ft.
one of the things happens to me a lot is when a set comes and i want to catch a big wave i start paddling and then when i'm on the wave i see a steep drop in front of me (not just a gentell one) and it feels like maybe im too slow or something.
usually when i look at other surfers beside me i see they are paddling and located on the 2/3 height of the wave while for me it feel like im on the very top of it(it might be it's just my feelings and fears make me think so)
so.. my questions are
what should i see up there ? should it be a gentle slope and i'm doing something wrong ? should it look steep and i need to lean forward and stand anyway ?
should i really be located at the 2/3 height as i see other do ?
thank you very much !