My first time surfing experience

Well.. I am from WI and it was the first time I ever had been in the ocean.. it was in December and we were wearing wetsuits.. something else I've never done before. My friend gave me a 7 footer and we headed out to surf.
He then showed me how to paddle.. and how to flip the board over and go under it when waves come. It seemed odd though, because the board would smack down on me.. and it didn't seem like a good solution..
Anyway.. he wants to take me out to the lineup.. after I stood up on 2 waves in the whitewash..
On the way out there the waves seem huge.. intimidated I reluctantly paddle along..
As we were paddling out there.. I see my friend yell something to me.. and I can feel like I'm almost vertical.. and all of a sudden.. CRASH!!!
I held onto the board thinking it would pull me to the surface.. meanwhile I got thrashed around like there was no tomorrow.. when I finally got to the surface I didn't know which way to go.. just then another wave came and again.. I'm beat down.. frantically I'm just trying to get up on the surf board.. hoping the wave would push me to shore.. or at least I can stay afloat..
unfortunatly.. my friend never told me to face the board towards the shore and get on it.. so I was just trying to keep the board under my arms.. parallel to the waves.. so I was just getting beat over and over..
the shore looked so far away, and soon it was tough just trying to stay afloat.. much less do anything. All the frantic movements and the raced breathing.. I had no energy.. if I let go of the board I could barely feel the ground.. but since the currant would pull me back after each wave I couldn't get my foot on the ground.. I was too tired to try to swim for it.. I finally go close enough and was able to walk in.. I could barely walk.. my body was jelly.. I kept falling from the dents in the sand.. my friend just laughed at me and said I got maytagged and that it wasn't as bad as I think it was.. and to get over it..
but I think it was that bad. For the rest of the trip I was apprehensive.. I've never felt so helpless before in my life. I look at pictures of surfing and see videos and it makes my stomach uneasy and my knees knock.. and this is while sitting behind my computer miles and miles away.
After that I went after a few more waves that were a little bit more calm.. I always felt super tired.. and scared.. I felt helpless..
I decided that perhaps I should stay in the whitewash a bit more and fool around there.. my friend just badgered me for the rest of the time and called me "pussy" and other things..
am I wrong? I mean.. am I wrong for wanting to be in the soup? How long do you think people learning should stay with the soup? My friend said you can't duck dive a 7 foot board.. is that true? Then what do you do when a wave comes at you.. currently he says you just ditch it and dive if a wave is closing out on you.. but if a wave is coming is there a way to duck dive it with a long board?
Do you guys think I'm being overly sensitive of the situation? I think I can attribute it to larger waves in December and me getting thrashed.. he said he did the same thing but his waves that thrashed him were in the summer..
this was in San Diego by the way..
I feel like I'm really scared of surfing, but something makes me not want to give up on it..
any help and suggestions would be appreciated..
He then showed me how to paddle.. and how to flip the board over and go under it when waves come. It seemed odd though, because the board would smack down on me.. and it didn't seem like a good solution..
Anyway.. he wants to take me out to the lineup.. after I stood up on 2 waves in the whitewash..
On the way out there the waves seem huge.. intimidated I reluctantly paddle along..
As we were paddling out there.. I see my friend yell something to me.. and I can feel like I'm almost vertical.. and all of a sudden.. CRASH!!!
I held onto the board thinking it would pull me to the surface.. meanwhile I got thrashed around like there was no tomorrow.. when I finally got to the surface I didn't know which way to go.. just then another wave came and again.. I'm beat down.. frantically I'm just trying to get up on the surf board.. hoping the wave would push me to shore.. or at least I can stay afloat..
unfortunatly.. my friend never told me to face the board towards the shore and get on it.. so I was just trying to keep the board under my arms.. parallel to the waves.. so I was just getting beat over and over..
the shore looked so far away, and soon it was tough just trying to stay afloat.. much less do anything. All the frantic movements and the raced breathing.. I had no energy.. if I let go of the board I could barely feel the ground.. but since the currant would pull me back after each wave I couldn't get my foot on the ground.. I was too tired to try to swim for it.. I finally go close enough and was able to walk in.. I could barely walk.. my body was jelly.. I kept falling from the dents in the sand.. my friend just laughed at me and said I got maytagged and that it wasn't as bad as I think it was.. and to get over it..
but I think it was that bad. For the rest of the trip I was apprehensive.. I've never felt so helpless before in my life. I look at pictures of surfing and see videos and it makes my stomach uneasy and my knees knock.. and this is while sitting behind my computer miles and miles away.
After that I went after a few more waves that were a little bit more calm.. I always felt super tired.. and scared.. I felt helpless..
I decided that perhaps I should stay in the whitewash a bit more and fool around there.. my friend just badgered me for the rest of the time and called me "pussy" and other things..
am I wrong? I mean.. am I wrong for wanting to be in the soup? How long do you think people learning should stay with the soup? My friend said you can't duck dive a 7 foot board.. is that true? Then what do you do when a wave comes at you.. currently he says you just ditch it and dive if a wave is closing out on you.. but if a wave is coming is there a way to duck dive it with a long board?
Do you guys think I'm being overly sensitive of the situation? I think I can attribute it to larger waves in December and me getting thrashed.. he said he did the same thing but his waves that thrashed him were in the summer..
this was in San Diego by the way..
I feel like I'm really scared of surfing, but something makes me not want to give up on it..
any help and suggestions would be appreciated..