"intermediate" surf advice

hey guys, this is my first post. I'll kept it as short and concise as possible.
i have a few questions regarding progressing my skills. I have been surfing for about 3 years now, surfing smallish waves. at most waist-shoulder high. I have definitely improved since i started but want to get a few things ironed out.
I normally can paddle out back on a nice clean day, but once the conditions get choppy @ shore and biggish out back i tend to panic.
If the conditions arent too friendly i chicken out, but im slowly overcoming that, im surfing in bali now and seem to be doing ok. so here are my questions:
1) how to get over the fear of "messy" conditions or conditions out of my comfort zone (of having a wave break right on top of me and drown)? i think this is hindering me from stepping up.
2) the surf guides both said to me(here in bali) i need to paddle harder? but to be honest i feel like im giving it all i got and not getting any where.. my back starts to strain and my arms get heavy, leaving me winded. i've read a few posts and the surf school link here and will def give it a try. but any refreshers would be ok.
i know trhe answers to these are subjective.. but any advice would do!
I'm surfing a 6'0x20 fish, im 5'7 and i think my position on the board is ok, the nose is a wee bit about water. I can occasionally catch good unbroken waves. but get frustrated that other surfers are catching 100000x more waves then me.
i dont wanna bug out and get frustrated and i do enjoy myself as much as i can... hope to hear from you guys.
cheers.
i have a few questions regarding progressing my skills. I have been surfing for about 3 years now, surfing smallish waves. at most waist-shoulder high. I have definitely improved since i started but want to get a few things ironed out.
I normally can paddle out back on a nice clean day, but once the conditions get choppy @ shore and biggish out back i tend to panic.
If the conditions arent too friendly i chicken out, but im slowly overcoming that, im surfing in bali now and seem to be doing ok. so here are my questions:
1) how to get over the fear of "messy" conditions or conditions out of my comfort zone (of having a wave break right on top of me and drown)? i think this is hindering me from stepping up.
2) the surf guides both said to me(here in bali) i need to paddle harder? but to be honest i feel like im giving it all i got and not getting any where.. my back starts to strain and my arms get heavy, leaving me winded. i've read a few posts and the surf school link here and will def give it a try. but any refreshers would be ok.
i know trhe answers to these are subjective.. but any advice would do!
I'm surfing a 6'0x20 fish, im 5'7 and i think my position on the board is ok, the nose is a wee bit about water. I can occasionally catch good unbroken waves. but get frustrated that other surfers are catching 100000x more waves then me.
i dont wanna bug out and get frustrated and i do enjoy myself as much as i can... hope to hear from you guys.
cheers.
