Don't be afraid to ask the questions on the forum, those of us that are more experienced have been through the phases you have.
The other learners here can also give you good advice as they are closer to you in what they are experiencing.
I appreciate the compliment of sending me PMs in regard to your learnings, but I feel that it is better to post your questions on the forum as there is a bigger crew of experience to help you.
A few quick thoughts;
Surfing is not easy especially in the beginning.
There is lots to learn about the surf, the waves, rips etc.
Then you have to get your act together on the board of your choice.
As a beginner do you know the reality beyond the sale pitch of surfboards?
Put on top of that, the unwritten but often enforced rules of the lineup.
Riding the white water is not surfing it is a small beginning
If you are not having fun, do something else in another venue.
If you are having fun share the stoke or at least grin furiously
Don't take yourself too seriously, surf will smack you down.
Learn as soon as possible how to share in the lineup but also learn to take your rightful share too.
Be assured but not possessive or aggressive.
Big one this; surf as often as possible, do things to make this happen more often.
