it means i'm gonna be out of action for a bit, but hopefully not too long.
They said there's a risk of permanent nerve damage so I'm really stressing about the consequences. i'm worrying about the anaesthetic too after previous bad experiences.
I'm getting really fed up of hospitals
i'm going through a "why me?" phase again, but I guess i shouldn't complain. I just have such a bad history with operations I dont want to deal with it right now.
denial seems like a good idea
that and alcohol 
