Anybody ever get mad in the ocean?

Question: Have you ever had a release of anger/emotion that surprised you while surfing?
First, my recent trip to San Diego was amazing, but something very strange happened to me on the second day of it that I've been thinking about quietly since. While surfing the second day, I was doing very badly. I'm new so bad is standard for me and I'm not even sure you can call what I do surfing. Anyway, eventually I was surfing alone in an area and it was kinda nice to not have anyone see me even though I don't really get that embarrassed. Here's the weird part: I started to feel really frustrated and the next thing I knew I was experiencing real anger and facing the waves with an anger I've never felt before. It was almost like I knew the waves could take it and whatever was inside that needed to come out could come out there and it would be okay and safe. I also knew I couldn't win against the ocean but it didn't matter. It wasn't a temper tantrum because I surf like a doofus, it was more of a release of super pent-up anger and other crap I didn't even realize was in me. I don't really feel that kind of anger. Ever. So, it surprised me to feel anger that intensely there. I was absolutely exhausted and very tranquil afterwards! Anyone else ever have that kind of release while surfing or am I all alone on this one? I don't really play sports other than golf and I'm not a club thrower, and then I have been skydiving and didn't have the same anger experience but did feel really intense emotions and then super calm. Calling all Freuds here!
First, my recent trip to San Diego was amazing, but something very strange happened to me on the second day of it that I've been thinking about quietly since. While surfing the second day, I was doing very badly. I'm new so bad is standard for me and I'm not even sure you can call what I do surfing. Anyway, eventually I was surfing alone in an area and it was kinda nice to not have anyone see me even though I don't really get that embarrassed. Here's the weird part: I started to feel really frustrated and the next thing I knew I was experiencing real anger and facing the waves with an anger I've never felt before. It was almost like I knew the waves could take it and whatever was inside that needed to come out could come out there and it would be okay and safe. I also knew I couldn't win against the ocean but it didn't matter. It wasn't a temper tantrum because I surf like a doofus, it was more of a release of super pent-up anger and other crap I didn't even realize was in me. I don't really feel that kind of anger. Ever. So, it surprised me to feel anger that intensely there. I was absolutely exhausted and very tranquil afterwards! Anyone else ever have that kind of release while surfing or am I all alone on this one? I don't really play sports other than golf and I'm not a club thrower, and then I have been skydiving and didn't have the same anger experience but did feel really intense emotions and then super calm. Calling all Freuds here!
