I may give up Surfing

I love this sport. But as an old beginner (started 5 years ago), I am not good at it and landlocked with 250km to the closest (windswell) beach. The last experiences were: Sickness in Morocco, No waves in California, Corona cancelled trip to Spain. For the next days we planned some days off at the North Sea and the forecast is completely flat. I only have 25-30 days/year that I can go, and that requires planning, dedication, and family compromises. But then the waves also need to cooperate, which often they do not. Somehow it feels like starting from scratch every time - the last nice surf was in August 2019. Sorry for the rant; but I am getting really frustrated and wonder wether I should even try to continue with such limited opportunities in a sport that is so demanding.