Performance anxiety.....

Anyone feel this when they surf? It's a real thing when you first paddle out to a lineup and the others size you up.....depending on the level of the lineup, you better stick that first wave if you want respect......regular spots I don't feel this since all the regulars are familiar with each other.....but in unfamiliar lineups, all eyes are definitely on you for that first wave.
I have to psyche myself up and put blinders on.....thing I hate is when paddling for the wave and looking down the line is to lock on eye contact with others who want to watch you. First wave, fine.....I expect it and am ready for it......what really gets me is that accidental eye contact (one or several sets of eyes on you) an hour into the sesh, when you are not expecting it since you've been next to most of the lineup all that time.....caught off guard it really throws me off and I usually blow the wave either outright at takeoff or on the bottom turn as my whole rhythm and connection to the wave is interrupted.
A byproduct of overcrowded lineups and a personal issue that I need to work out
......anyone else experience this?
I have to psyche myself up and put blinders on.....thing I hate is when paddling for the wave and looking down the line is to lock on eye contact with others who want to watch you. First wave, fine.....I expect it and am ready for it......what really gets me is that accidental eye contact (one or several sets of eyes on you) an hour into the sesh, when you are not expecting it since you've been next to most of the lineup all that time.....caught off guard it really throws me off and I usually blow the wave either outright at takeoff or on the bottom turn as my whole rhythm and connection to the wave is interrupted.
A byproduct of overcrowded lineups and a personal issue that I need to work out
