Wanting to progress

Hey all, first time poster…Been surfing for a while now but am having trouble progressing from beginner level up to intermediate. The learning curve has been very steep for me, I suspect starting out in my late 40s has something to do with that. Though not looking for excuses as I know that what is rattling around in my head holds me back more than my physical conditioning. I am a female, 5'8, 140 lbs, in better than average shape. I surf a 7'4 fun board and 9'2 longboard, I think they fit me to a tee. I surf solo (though at my local beach breaks solo isn't really solo if you get my drift), once a week, though in winter less depending on how high the snow drifts get at the parking lots
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I have 2 main habits I know I need to break. I try to work on them but seems once I get out in the ocean my adrenaline takes over and I forget everything I should be focusing on. 1st habit is walking out to where the waves are breaking, standing and waiting for the waves rather than paddling out past the break and sitting on my board out back waiting. I imagine out back is out of my comfort zone, I need to find a way to push through that barrier. 2nd habit is using the ole knee pop up rather than swinging up in one continuous motion. I know I can do it right as I have it perfected the move down in my basement. Why oh why do I resort to the knee thing out in the break. Ugh.
Anyway, I am thinking putting this out there in writing might actually be a good first step to what I hope will be a ah ha moment for me in the near future. Stoked to even think about what it will feel like to glide down the line rather than flounder in the white water.

I have 2 main habits I know I need to break. I try to work on them but seems once I get out in the ocean my adrenaline takes over and I forget everything I should be focusing on. 1st habit is walking out to where the waves are breaking, standing and waiting for the waves rather than paddling out past the break and sitting on my board out back waiting. I imagine out back is out of my comfort zone, I need to find a way to push through that barrier. 2nd habit is using the ole knee pop up rather than swinging up in one continuous motion. I know I can do it right as I have it perfected the move down in my basement. Why oh why do I resort to the knee thing out in the break. Ugh.
Anyway, I am thinking putting this out there in writing might actually be a good first step to what I hope will be a ah ha moment for me in the near future. Stoked to even think about what it will feel like to glide down the line rather than flounder in the white water.