Attemped progression to a shortboard too fast...:(

Hello,
I've been trying to get down the line on a 6'3" Haydenshapes Untitled lately. But let me start this story from the beginning. I've been happily surfing my 9'0" log for the past year now. This winter in Southern CA I decided to try and learn how to catch waves on a shortboard at my home break. My home break is El Porto. El Porto is known for steep waves that close out, El Closeout. But it's the most fun and punchy beach break here in LA. So I stepped down to a 6'8" Hypto Krypto this October and started getting the hang of catching steeper waves. I think it was at this stage that my delusions of accomplishment began to give me a false sense of progress. I thought I had my 6'8" wired. Did I ever go down the line? Not that I can recall. Was I consistently catching waves? Probably not so much. My Hypto has 50 liters of Volume. And then I dropped another 10 Liters with the 6'3" Untitled.
Well my enthusiasm got the best of me again and I signed up for this awesome new Surfboard rental company called AwayCo. The first month was free and so began the past month of crushed dreams. I've been borrowing as I said in the beginning the Hayden Shapes Untitled. I never caught a single green wave. I'm at the point where maybe I should just get back to my 9'0" log and remember what it's like to stand up on a surfboard. It's literally been a month of me trying desperately to throw myself down the face of a wave, only to either miss every time or stumble when I'm in the perfect position. My ego is greatly diminished and I'm just feeling like a total kook loser now. I thought I was progressing so fast, now it's like I've regressed!
I'm tempted to get some private surf lessons. Because I have nobody who can tell me what I'm doing wrong. I'm so tired of feeling like a buoy in the lineup. Any tips or advice is welcome.
I've been trying to get down the line on a 6'3" Haydenshapes Untitled lately. But let me start this story from the beginning. I've been happily surfing my 9'0" log for the past year now. This winter in Southern CA I decided to try and learn how to catch waves on a shortboard at my home break. My home break is El Porto. El Porto is known for steep waves that close out, El Closeout. But it's the most fun and punchy beach break here in LA. So I stepped down to a 6'8" Hypto Krypto this October and started getting the hang of catching steeper waves. I think it was at this stage that my delusions of accomplishment began to give me a false sense of progress. I thought I had my 6'8" wired. Did I ever go down the line? Not that I can recall. Was I consistently catching waves? Probably not so much. My Hypto has 50 liters of Volume. And then I dropped another 10 Liters with the 6'3" Untitled.
Well my enthusiasm got the best of me again and I signed up for this awesome new Surfboard rental company called AwayCo. The first month was free and so began the past month of crushed dreams. I've been borrowing as I said in the beginning the Hayden Shapes Untitled. I never caught a single green wave. I'm at the point where maybe I should just get back to my 9'0" log and remember what it's like to stand up on a surfboard. It's literally been a month of me trying desperately to throw myself down the face of a wave, only to either miss every time or stumble when I'm in the perfect position. My ego is greatly diminished and I'm just feeling like a total kook loser now. I thought I was progressing so fast, now it's like I've regressed!
I'm tempted to get some private surf lessons. Because I have nobody who can tell me what I'm doing wrong. I'm so tired of feeling like a buoy in the lineup. Any tips or advice is welcome.